I took that picture to introduce my Valentine’s Day entry. I could use this entire space to talk about being 25 and single. Or I could talk about my Compassion Campaign and how I am not even considering any men for romantic relationships until my year is done.
But my relationship status, surprisingly, means nothing to me this 2013. I have so many other things coursing through my brain that getting a boyfriend and hoping he is husband material feels light years away.
Today I’m thinking a lot about sacrifice. The Lenten season is overflowing with sacrifice and attention to spirituality that my heart swells with this season. I am deeply moved by the attention to something that holds such deep, sacred richness for me.
I’m tired of being selfish. I’m tired of being self absorbed. I live too much nitpicking myself and disgusing it as humility. Reality? Focus on self, negative or positive is pride. Period. Pride is thinking of yourself too much.
I am searching, eagerly for opportunities to give more of myself for the sake of the Kingdom. I want to cultivate a heart that is driven by compassion, and not consistently lamenting my lack thereof. I want helping others and seeing others to be what I do first, rather than in hindsight.
I want people to see my life and think, “yes, this woman has been with Jesus.” I want that to be a reflexive response, not a challenge filled conclusion deduced about me.