I have considered it a priority to be honest along my weight loss journey, because it does nobody any good to believe that this process is simple or without any ups and downs. I have encountered something that frustrates me beyond words, my scale is stalled.
I lost a tremendous amount of weight in a short amount of time. (Which isn’t all that terrible in light of how much I weigh and how much that my body should lose along the way). But that meant that, even though I was gaining muscle (and trust me, I am!) I was still losing fat percentages much more quickly than gaining muscle. That meant, that the second the fat percentage dropping stopped, the muscle gain wouldn’t necessarily stop as well. Which is fine. I have always excitedly admitted that I want to gain muscle. I don’t want to be skinny; I want to be strong.
But I had a terrible habit of being excited when I saw the numbers drop on the scale. I didn’t think that it had any influence over me. I just thought that they were numbers and that they didn’t dictate my emotions about this whole process. But I was wrong.
When the scale went up instead of down after some intense days of working out (and not because I thought it was going to speed my process up, but because I had extra time in the day to workout, and I’m a nut who actually enjoys it anyway), I was defeated. I was ready to throw in the towel and walk away from this whole process.
Which is seriously ridiculous. (How oxymoronic of me.) But it really was that much of a variable in how I defined my day. If I stepped on a scale and the numbers went down, then I had something to celebrate all day. That whole business frustrated me, and infuriated me. Why? Because I can feel and see my body changing. It is much more noticeable in pictures from past compared to ones of the present moment. But, I cannot let the numbers on the scale become my obsession.
So I broke up with my scale.
I need to get a tape measurer and spend more time noticing the inches that I lose along the way. But, I am not completely done with weighing myself either. I have marked this as a lifestyle change, not just a temporary fad diet. If I wanted to lose weight, I could do it quickly and it would be unhealthy. But I need to refocus and consider weight loss a byproduct of getting healthy and fit.
So my scale and I had a talk and decided we needed to see a lot less of one another along the way.